Born this way...

          One of the things that I have yet to blog about is homosexuality. As I am a believer in God and homosexuality can be quite an issue at times. I have nothing against homosexuality. Is it wrong? Is it right? Adam and Eve not Adam and Steve? I don't know. All I know is that what matters most is if a person loves God and lives their life to the best of their ability. Who am I to judge what is the best of their ablility? Who am I, who is anyone, to say anyone involved with the same sex lives in sin. We all live in sin. We were all born in sin.

          I love people of all race, gender, ethnicity. I love them all. I love them all because Jesus loves all of us no matter who we are, or what we've done. No, I'm not perfect and there are people that I just rather not be around, I just physically don't have it in me to hate anyone no matter what they've done to me or anyone else. I don't know what is going on within them. I'm not their judge. I'm here to live my life for God, and to spread the good news. I'm here to love you and be your friend. No matter where I am or where I come from or who I will be, I will always be a friend to you.

          So we're all born this way. We're all born in sin. All we can do is accept God in our hearts and love others as God loves us. I can't remember which scripture it is but it does say that the best way to spread the gospel and show who Jesus is, is to love others. To show people love.

          No matter if they've told a white lie, caused the holocaust, or confused about their sexuality... we are to love them because God loves them.  THAT is the heart of God. Love.

-J

Moving.

          In my last blog I wrote a "poem" on me dropping out of college. It is more or less me saying I'm going to take a break from school for the next two or three years and pay off my loans then go back to school. I want to be a podiatrist. I've thought and though and prayed and prayed, and helping people is what makes me happy. I need a career where I can genuinely help people because is EXACTLY how I feel. I want to show people love and compassion, and what better way than to show it through helping them take care of their feet! I'm REALLY excited about "discovering" this about myself. 

          Knowing this about myself leads me to another piece of information. I have decided to move back home and live with my parents, temporarily, until I get a good job and pay off my loans then head back to school. There is not a podiatry school in Oklahoma, the closest one is Arizona. I don't know what school I would be going to, but right now I'm just focusing on getting moved, getting a good job, and paying my loans off. My parents have been giving me money each month so I can survive while I went to school, and as I am no longer going to school at this moment, I decided moving home is what's best. I'm at peace with this decision. Completely.

          Something that I have not shared on my blog is my health. I've had some issues with me being sick. It turns out I have a ovarian cyst. I think I've had it for some time now but I'm not sure. I've had some issues with a physicians assistant, and because of that I don't know the details quite yet. I'm hoping to make an appointment to find out if it's something I should be a bit more worried about or not. As it stands, I really have no idea what is going on with it. lol. It's okay though. I'm young and I take care of myself so the odds are everything is fine and nothing is going on. Just pray for me and keep me in your thoughts.

Looks like I'm moving back to Poteau... for now.

-J

I'm a college drop out...

I'm 22-years old and I'm a college drop out.
I've been to school since I was four, and I'm a college drop out.
In my college career I have learned that I hate group projects
In my college career I have learned  that the piece of paper declaring that I'm educated
only means you completed tons of useless work that in the end will amount... to nothing.
I'm 22-years old and I'm a college drop out.

They don't understand, and never will.
Suddenly the life experience
and the 18 other years of school I went to mean nothing.
I'm uneducated and can't communicate
I don't work well with others
and the only job I'm ever expected to get, supposedly ends in "Would you like fries with that?"
I'm 22-years old and I'm a college drop out.


I'm 22-years old and I'm a college drop out.
I'm intelligent, happy, and outgoing
I have plenty of friends, and I don't work a job that ends in "Would you like fries with that?"
I have gone through things at my age that many people don't go through in a life time.
I love my life.
I love me.
Many people in this world can't say that.
I can.
I'm 22-years old and I'm a college drop out.

-J